... aini ...

Off days are really meant for break time!

2010-03-28T23:43:00.003+08:00

I enjoyed myself yesterday.

With family, aunts, uncle, cousins and boyfriend

being put together,

there's no further reason as to why

I should not enjoy yesterday's outing!

All except Mr Boyfriend met at ION first to get our late

lunch and then accompanied by

window-shopping as well as mini shopping from some of us.

Around 6pm, we headed down to Bugis.

The MAK-MAK, as usual, stop by at the

kedai kain to buy kain for the upcoming Hari Raya.

This year, mum get myself 3 kain songket!!

Wooohoo!! Baik la mother! I love you la!

After which, headed to Merdandy to

have our sheesha session.

Soon after, My boyfriend arrived.

I miss him sooo much la!!

Overall, I had so much fun, especially

playing the stupid finger game! HAHA!

I'm back!

2010-03-26T17:13:00.006+08:00

I have to admit that I've left my blog for a month plus!

This all all due to prolong busy schedule as well as fatigue for

having to work my ass out!

I managed to get 2 weeks off after 2 weeks of constant

working, standing 9 hours every day!

Pheeww! Hazlinda, your turn to work your ass out!

Oh well, recently, we just had a triple date outing

to the Fish and Chix outlet

at Sembawang. Well, it was awesome (at least to me)

because we played the water and eventually got ourselves wet!

Yes, we did have fun till I burst into laughters, with of course, tears of joy as well!

Apart from that, the girls personally think that our boys should

do more catching up and

warm out because only at the end of the outing that

they turned out active!

(Muke penjenayah sei. CUTE!)

Oh.. Today is 26th March!! Ring any bells?

Alright for those who don't, today is indeed my dearest boyfriend

turning 20!!! Yeah, he's all grown up now.

I hope that he's more mature in

choosing the best for him and I wish him good

luck for his future ahead!

I will help you, my dear, guiding u in terms of academically.

You don't worry alright?

But of course, I need you to help yourself too!

I hope you will wear that VANS shoes

I've given you dear!

Wo Ai Ni!

And as for tomorrow, the cousins and aunts will be

meeting up for a karaoke and sheesha session! How cool is that?

Aunt ask Mr Boyfriend to tag along but

he told me he will join us for sheesha only.

Reason being, he is shy to sing!

Pathetic sei b! Ok takpe.

I've got to go now. I've to meet boyfriend and his family

for his birthday celebration at Pizza Hut! Till then!!

Happy 36th Monthsary...

2010-02-08T23:59:00.006+08:00

Today, marks the 36th Monthsary I've known the love of my life.

He is none other than my Norishzam Bin Saat....

Dear,

it has been a pleasure knowing you for 3 years.

I've never a pinch feel regretted knowing you.

Being with you by my side is like having my

strongest pillar of my strengths.

Although shits do happen at times,

we now know how to handle them with the

maturity of ours and with a little help

of understanding from either of us.

Thank you, so much, for the wonderful times

we had years back up till now.

It feels like as though I've known you just yesterday.

I promise, my love for you will forever stays for eternity,

for the rest of my life..... I love you so much dear.

I love my Norishzam. I love US. Just me and you.

Love,

Nurul Aini

IZAAMMM!!!!

2010-01-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

Hello World!

I'm going to make this post as short and sweet as possible.

This week is going to be not-so-hectic-as-last-week week!

Baby will now be busy with rehearsals for 4 days + 1 day for B.E.

I'll be lonely for this 5 days and I think I can be a retard at home after school.

On a positive note, my 3 years anniversary is drawing near!

Simply can't wait to carry out my plans! I hope it's gonna work

like I how I keep on replaying it in my mind!

Alright, have to go now.

See you all soon!

I find him cute in this picture.

And I'm missing you dear!

Penat@hotmail.com

2010-01-20T23:49:00.004+08:00

My life has been pretty hectic this week.

Firstly, I'm busy with work during the weekends.

Secondly, I'm always back home late at night and this

can irritate me at times.

This Haylie ehhh is wayy too cute la!

She's truely a blur sotong and wayy too hilarious!

I love it when she's in class. Jokerr!

Cont'd....

It's either I have to help my

friends (Haylie jek actually) accompany them to somewhere or I simply slack with

Baby's friends at the track. But I love hanging out with them

because they are simply talking nonsense and making you laugh like hell.

This is the moment when you'll be surprised with the time.

I will always be home from the time range of 10-10.30pm.

Sungguh.penat.dot.com.sg laaaahhh!!!!

That's the reason why I have been leaving my blog alone.

And right now, I have back pain.

Habes tu mataer aku pulak belom balek dari Bloco punye

training. Then kan.. Aku tengah boring la..

Si zuzuu pulak da offline siang-siang.. Haizz.

Ape punye MAY babies la lu! Tidoo siang jek tao...

And I'm sooo looking forward for this Saturday because

Zuzuu, Halimahtus Saadiah, Fai, Izam and I will

venture out to SENTOSA and hang out there!!

WOOOHOOO!!

~~I gotta feeling... wooohooooooooooo... that that day will be a good day... ~~~

Ok la.. Nak tidur.com la.. Penat..

Bye..

and Ganesh.. Your monkey-look-alike face is damn funny!

I likeee!!! That thing alone can make me laugh for one month!!

hahahahahahahha!!!!!!

Izam izam.... HAHAHAHHA.

2010-01-15T00:14:00.003+08:00

My dear did this while he was in the midst of his lesson.

How sweet! So people, we both are under the WANTED list.

Need a reward? Find us!

I was supposed to study for my Genetics UT

which falls on Friday (which turns out to be today) but

unfortunately, nothing goes insides my head.

So, I have decided to just abolish my intention of studying

and do whatever I want...

Today, my dear didn't go for Bloco Rehearsal for he has

to attend to his practical lesson at BBDC.

Before he went off, we actually spent some time together

playing guessing games and somehow, this word comes out

from his mouth, 'TUALA EMAS!'.

What the heck sia Tuala Emas?!?!?

I burst to laughter spontaneously.

Baby, you're always a clown to me.

I love today's bonding session!

Let's play some more games, shall we?

And look what he did during his free time...

Just seconds ago....

HAHAHAHHA!!!

Trying to be funny eh B?

Ok la.. Funny la..

This boy really need a spank from me

for being extraordinarily cute!!

I love you sweetheart! Muacckss!

handphone hilang kejap jek.

2010-01-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

Today, I shall consider myself lucky.

Wanna know why?

Here's the story...

I LOST my handphone down at Timezone located at

Causeway Point while I was so enthu playing the games there with

Haylie, Zuzu and my boyfriend!

I remember myself putting my fone at my pocket

(which is a usual ritual for me) while sitting in this

3D animation thingy. After which, we straight away rushed towards

the car racing games simply because all of us were so eager to play.

After the matched among us, I took my bag and touch my pocket (again, usual ritual)

to have the confirmation that my handphone is inside my pocket..

Uusally, I feel secure because my handphone

will always be in my pocket...

But this time.................... I PANIC!!!!!!

NO HANDPHONE IN MY POCKET SIA!!

I rummaged through my bags and pockets like for umpteenth times and

it wasn't there at all!!

The next thing I knew, I cried.

Like baby siaa. Boyfriend hug me and told me to calm down.

The other two were searching high and low for me.

Ok Ok. to make the story short la kan..

The staff from Timezone finally came to me and handed me my phone.

They found it at the 3D animation thingy place.

I lost my phone for 15-20 mins but thanks to Allah, I got it back!!

Thank you Zuzuu and Halimahtus, my dearest girlfriends for the effort to search for it.

Thank you Izam, my dearest boyfriend for staying beside me, calming me down.

ARRGGGHH!! I'm happy now! Ok. tired now. Tmr continue blogging k!

Dear Izam,

2010-01-09T00:13:00.004+08:00

To my dearest boyfriend, Norishzam:

Happy 35th Monthsary to us.

We have made it this far although there are some

tiffs right in between.

I have been loving you for almost 3 years and

no matter what, I won't stop loving you.

Love is all about sharing our joys, laughters, sadness and

in short, simply everything, together.

For the past 2 months, life has taught us the meaning of true love.

It teaches us to be more understanding and mature.

Be more concern and loving, no matter what.

To respect each other and trusting one another in any

situation that either one of us is in.

You know what dear? I was on the verge of tears when you keep

on saying sorry to me just now, for not making me happy.

You took my hand and apologize even though I don't

actually say anything of you being in wrong.

You promised me to bring me somewhere on Monday to celebrate our

monthsary because you know I was sad that we couldn't make it today.

How sweet can you be dear? I love you so much darling!

My neck cramp sei!

2010-01-07T23:52:00.005+08:00

I just received a text message from Mr Boyfriend

that he is on his way home.

Time check: 11.55pm.

5 more minutes to a new day and he just ended with his Bloco Rehearsal.

I pitied him because he have to attend all the rehearsals, even during weekdays

and one of the weekends, up till the Chingay ends.

Oh Chingay!! Can you pretty please come quick?

I don't like it if my honey bear here is pretty worn out.

He'll get sick easily and it sucks to see someone whom you love

to be sick.

And because of this rehearsals and such, we had to give our coming 35th

anniversary a miss on this Saturday.

Quite sad though but I understand his situation.

It's alright dear, we have one more month for our biggest day,

36th Monthsary (3 years) + Valentine's Day!! I'm so looking forward for this.

I shall start planning carefully for our happy moments on that very day.

Looks like I have no choice but to work on all the weekends for this month!

As for now, I shall continue to download more latest songs while waiting

my Izam to be home.

I love you so much dear!

I nak CABOT!!

2010-01-07T11:42:00.002+08:00

I HAVE THE URGE TO CABOT CLASS ALREADY!!

and ALL this is because of that Indian Faci who doesn't seem to help

the class understand the whole thing at all!!!!!

Alright KIWEKS, pack your bag and belah JOMZ!!!

HAHAHA.

YESS ARRR!

2010-01-07T01:03:00.004+08:00

I have finally updated my blog!

Thanks to my own motivation to clear off the accumulated dust here..

It has been nearly months ever since I last logged in to my account.

Since I have decorated my backgrounds and make certain changes to my blog,

I shall now frequently use my blog to start ranting my daily lives!!

Oh Oh! My dear has been waiting for me! Got to go folks!

See you all real soon! Be sure to catch my stories! (:

I love you my dear IZAM!!

Ok ok.. LETZ JOMZZ!

Izam, WO AI NI!

2009-12-15T22:38:00.003+08:00

Finally, RP is having its 3 weeks holidays!

Thank goodness! As such, Mr Izam decided to meet me earlier on

for a movie date down at Ang Mo Kio Hub before he goes for Bloco Rehearsal.

I swear the Cathay down there is much better than the one

at Causeway Point!

We watched COUPLES RETREAT because we've watched other movies.

I find that this particular movie is best watch for couples who are having

domestic problems. A little of therapy for them. Anyway, I enjoyed the movie

as much as I enjoy myself with the presence of Mr Boyfriend by my side.

Right now, I'm thankful to Allah for giving me the happiness that I've

been wanted. I feel that Izam and I are doing really well right now.

We both have never fail-ed to say we love each other at the end of the day.

I love you so much dear! I wouldn't want to lose you ever again.

It's really been a long time..

2009-12-11T00:39:00.003+08:00

Hello people out there!

I just feel that I have abandon this page of mine for quite a while.

It's going to be a month I'm back with him and so far so good.

No grudges, no quarrels and no everything!

Simply the best moments between the both of us.

Aini really likes this and I'm pretty sure Izam, too, will like it!!

I can feel the differences between both parties.

Perhaps, the past have made us realized the importance of the future.

I love you so much honey. Only you can make me smile, all day long.

Last Monday, Baby tag my family along to Pizza Hut to celebrate Daddy's Birthday.

I hope he enjoyed the time there simply because my family rocks the day!

Here are some of the pictures!!

Sweet right? Yeah, mum practically told us to do this,

saying, 'malu-malu kucing konon!'.

To show that we aren't actually shy, we did it!

It's proven dear mummy! HAHAHA.

I miss my sweetheart right now because he's off to Jakarta and will only be

back by Sunday. 2 more days only. Can one la Aini.

Hope you and your family are safe throughout the

entire journey dear, insyaallah. Amin.

I love you so much sayang. See you real soon!

Baby,

2009-12-01T00:18:00.004+08:00

Today, I was kind of sad with what

Bf has done to me.

To me, it's totally inhumane.

He ignored me from 12-4+pm!

What's worst when he didn't tell me

that he has gone

for a movie with his cliques right after lunch

and making me waited for

him in school for nearly 5 hours?!

He suddenly texted me: B, I kat Causeway. Can you go there now?

I was fuming hot all of the sudden and I control

my tears at the same time.

Why should you do this to me Baby? I've waited for

you all the while and there

you are watching movie? *Sigh*

I cried in front of him, thinking that he don't bother about me any more.

I just can't face him and accept his apology until he kneel down

and apologise, right under the MRT track. (Romantic

kepee? Cincin for proposal mane?)

Dear, no one ever did that to me before. You're the first. I'm touch-ed.

izam, my dear.

2009-11-28T00:46:00.004+08:00

"Every moment, I just can't take my mind off from you.

Your image has been constantly doing some

re-appearance in my mind, with a little touch of

fascinating imaginations between us. Oh boy, how massive

a difference you've made in my life. I simply can't resist you"

- Nurul Aini

All along, I had this mentality that you don't love me.

However, after sharing with you how I feel and all,

I guess I'm wrong. I think too much. The negative ones.

I'm so a pessimist when it comes to this; LOVE.

I guess I have to try harder in understanding you.

So far so good. Every days and nights, I never fail

to raise both of my hands and start to pray for

the two of us. Now that my love for you

has gradually increase, I wouldn't want it to

decrease back again. I just love you so much that

I couldn't bear to be parted from you.

All this comes from my sincerity.

I've never loved anyone so much like this before.

And if I did, you must be someone really special to me.

I love you so much Norishzam Saat;

right now, tomorrow, forever and eternity.

boring.

2009-11-26T11:41:00.002+08:00

Guess what people?

I'm now sick and tired of one particular thing!

Not totally considered as thing but more to food!

I'm sick of ROTI PRATA!

When I have the crave for Prata, nobody would

ask me out to eat that.

Last 2 days, I had ask Baby to Banquet to get some Prata.

I was glad that finally my throat is satisfied.

Then yesterday, during first break, baby ask to

go to kedai kopi. PRATA LAGI!!!!

Then for dinner, the whole family of mine ask

me out for PRATA AGAIN?!!!! Sial la.

Penat aku makan prata for 2 days straight.

Today, I don't wish to eat prata, at all!!!

I'm done with my slides. Has got nothing else to do.

Gosh, bored to the max la!

My sayang pon tak layan aku... Haiz.

Takpe. Maybe dier busy la tu.

Da lar.. Nak log out ar. Main game lagi mulia!

izam, my dear.

2009-11-26T00:57:00.003+08:00

I hope you'll change. I really hope so.

I remembered you saying this: I'll be serious the next time I'm in a relationship.

I mark your words honey.

I shall wait and see.

I sayang Izam I

2009-11-23T23:40:00.004+08:00

I was just back home from Tampines 1.

Ask for early departure from class,

with the most nonsense reason of all:

Going for Chingay Bloco rehearsal; when I wasn't even a percussionist!

Baik Aini! Thanks to Halimahtus for saving my day la!

Bus-ed to Tampines with Zuzu, Banana and of course Haylie.

They're such a great companion to go with.

Our laughters are always the loudest!

Baby met me there, together with Banana's Bf.

Window-shopped at Tampines 1 with

Baby, Banana and Bf as well as Hussein.

And Baby is being such a sweetheart by surprising me

a small-little-thing-yet-cute-paper-made-heart-shape.

Thank you baby! You make me smileeee.

I love you super duperr! Muackkss!

(Maseh sweet jugak u nie eh)

Ok. I'm lethargic. Got to go.

I love you Izam!

2009-11-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

Thank You Izam for sending me back home, right under my block!

Thanks for the splendid time at the library, even though you

don't seem to be feeling really well just now.

Hope you're having a good night sleep today because

you really need one darling. I superr duperr loving you!

On a brighter note, I'm 10% more on my Poster and then

I can send it off for printing! Thank you Zuzu for agreeing to

accompany me to Bugis.

And oh, I love my Kiweks group!

They make me smile each and every day!

Baby and I.

2009-11-16T23:54:00.004+08:00

(Zuuzuuu!! I love you! HAHA)

Thank you Izam for asking me out for a movie earlier on.

I sanggop cabot setengah jalan just to spend time with you.

The good thing is that, it was all worth it.

Every seconds with you was simply awesome!

You make me smile,

making me laugh like how you did before.

It's all coming back.

The feeling, the situation and whatever that I can think of.

I just miss you Baby.

And of course, I love you too.

Thank you for the graphic at your tumblr.

You're the one that my heart belongs to...

2009-11-14T00:52:00.005+08:00

Even a simple goodnight message can

make a major difference in my life.

See how dominant the effect of a message is to someone's life.

Well, in this particular case, it will be my life.

Thank you darling for having to put aside a minute of your

precious time just to bid goodnight.

Like finally, you've put on a big grin on my face.

You know, I strongly believe in faith.

If you really put your all for something that you'be been

wishing for, insyallah, GOD will answer to your prayers.

Izam, both of your sisters has been the one who console me.

The one who encourage me to move on.

The one who always ask about my being behind your back.

The one who have been asking about us.

Your mum especially has been constantly asking about us.

I envy you for having such an understanding family.

A family who cares much for you honey.

Every day, they would tell me that we will be together again.

and every time they say that, I would insert the word, 'Insyallah and Amin'.

Right now, my heart is finally at peace after 2 months of grievance.

Thank you ALLAH.

Last 2 months, on the 13th, it marks the horrible

day of my life ever. And now, I will forever hate the number 13.

But I will eternally LOVE my one and only, Norishzam Bin Saat.

Hmm.

2009-11-13T18:36:00.002+08:00

After School, I saw them.

Haiz. Trying my best not to feel jealous-ed but still, I did!

What a failure! But hey!

Jealous means you still have feelings for them!

I'm sorry to her if I ter-jeling or what. It wasn't my intention.

My jeling was meant for Him, of course!

Now you've given me assurance,

I'll stick to that Baby.

Jelingan tajam!

2009-11-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

After all, it's not YOU that I miss.

It's the time that we've had spent before.

So, what do I have to do next?

Simply nothing.

MOVING ON is the two major word

in my life right now.

Whatever happens today really

gave me a tight slap on my face.

This time, it (the slap) really hurts.

No matter what, my heart has craved out

your one and only name; _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .

*Sekarang I call you, you tak answer.

I heran so I thought you tak kuase.

I malas nak fikir ini semue.

So I end up saying: You, what-ever!*

Eh, style kepee?? HAHAH!

Impromptu punyaa!

Nak tidur sekarang.

2009-11-09T23:33:00.003+08:00

I don't know why I'm so much fatigue today.

My legs can hardly take it any more.

Spending time with Zana was all fun, right after school.

So much so for wanting to study, we end up

talking about our personal problems for like 2 hours and then

continue with mugging for like 1 and a half hours.

I find today's session with Zana was all comfy and nice.

Thank you Dearest Zana and remember our secret circle ok?

Too bad, Qido was not there to join us.

Else, it would be a perfect meet up!

Nowadays, I've been dreaming about this someone.

I don't know why he appear in my dream out of the sudden.

It has been quite sometimes since the last time he appeared in my dream.

Maybe, GOD wanted to show or tell something to me. Hmm. Maybe.

Right now, I have a confession to make!

Not really a confession but somehow or rather,

err don't know what's the suitable word

for this but nevermind.

That feeling, came back to me, once again!

Just as I thought that I can do it, there it comes again.

And Oh! Ikhsan actually start a conversation with me at MSN.

Sungguh terkejut but this time, I decided to reply him. Ok enough.

Period. I'm so sleepy now. Shall consume my Berry Essence then off to bed.

At last I can sleep!! Woohoo!!

Happily ever after.

2009-11-08T22:37:00.003+08:00

Friday, 06.11.09

Finally, I get to spend some time with my family.

We had dinner down at Rubinah's

and gobble up as much as we could.

I feel the loved once again.

Thank you so much my dearest Family.

I know all of you have been worried for me

ever since I'm experiencing a break up.

*************************************

Saturday, 07.11.09

Worked at Paragon.

Too many customers to be served at one time.

So annoying yet enjoying much.

They are a bunch of good people, who spent

their dollars without having to think twice.

I loike! I so much wanted to be like them in the future.

After work, I told Nancy, my senior, to have my future

looked upon by her. She's known to have this ability

to foresee one's future by looking at both of our hands.

By looking at my hands, she told me this:

1) Hmm. You'll get a very good husband.

2) Your husband is handsome.

3) In the future, you don't have to work anymore.

4) Your husband will support you fully.

5) He is soooo rich!

6) But, you'll have a late marriage.

Around the age of 27, you'll then get married.

Oh my god, tell me. Should I even believe all this?

HAHA. I shouldn't even think about having my future

known because it's a sin. But, just do it for the fun of it.

Reached home, had my shower and then

start to webcam with Izzati, abang's friend.

Since my webcam is much clearer, that's the reason why my

laptop is being used instead of abang's. She's so LAME la.

HAHA. Aku punyer LAME lagi. OMG. Disaster sey!!

******************************************

Sunday, 08.11.09

I'm sooo lethargic.

No more energy left.

Berry Essence, I really need you!

Izam just called. He was so happy with his newly bought bag

down at Rastafarian, his every time favourite shop. (:

Ok, I'm really sleepy right now.

Got to go now people. Good night!

***************************************************

I hate you.

2009-11-07T00:12:00.003+08:00

The more I think about you, the more

my heart hurts.

I'm forcing you out of my life, Izam.

Congratulation, you have successfully

make me hating you!

I HATE YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!

Feelings all out.

2009-11-05T00:29:00.005+08:00

Guess what people?

Nah.. Nothing.

I have this problem.

A major problem that has been living

within myself.

I wanted so much to abolish it.

But, somehow, it stuck with me forever.

Or maybe, for life? I don't know.

I may be smiling all day.

I may be laughing like nobody's business.

I may be the girl in class who always create noises

randomly, out of nowhere, making the whole

class laughing.

I may be the one whom people

might be thinking that I'm happy with my life.

Well, the real fact is, I'm not.

Totally the reversible of what I've stated above.

I do all that for a reason.

To try and make myself forgetting HIM.

But Aini, who seem to be strong physically,

is basically weak emotionally.

I do things that I shouldn't suppose to do like

calling HIM. Texting HIM. Hello Aini??!!

Where have your senses gone to? To the drain?!!

Gosh! People has been asking me to move on.

To keep things positive. To be optimistic.

But, I just can't simply because I treasure those moments

we had. I just couldn't believe that he seems to be very

happy with how things go. Maybe, he's pretending too, like me.

I just couldn't accept the fact that I do the searching.

I should be running while he should be doing the catching up.

I don't find him turning back to me. I don't find him to find me

that important to him because if he did, he should be doing all those that I've

been expecting him to do.

However, I do feel his concerns.

If he regards me as nothing, then why he kiss me on my

forehead, still?

You know, I miss the moment he placed his lips onto mine.

That was when all your adrenaline rush through your veins.

All your indescribable feelings just rush up to your brain. And those

speechless moments where you and your loved ones will just be the only

one who will witness what true love means.

Whenever I miss him, I will always close my eyes

and imagine that he's there,

right in front of me. Even for now, while

I was typing out all these, the only one who

is in my mind is no one else other than Norishzam Bin Saat.

I don't know why but I'm tearing right now.

I don't care if you're gonna be angry for I type

out your name here.

I've nowhere else to pour out my feelings to

right now other than this blog of mine

which has been witnessing my problems

ever since I created it.

And the song that all of you are hearing right now is the

first song he dedicated it to me. This is the song he will always sing to me

whenever we fought. And now, I'm dedicating this song back to him.

Just for you my dear, Izam. );

All the single ladies.

2009-11-04T00:00:00.006+08:00

Currently watching The Ugly Truth at

this particular website.

I feel so lethargic yet hyper at the same time.

Hyper because tomorrow I will

get to meet my single ladies!! I swear I laugh like

mad woman once I'm in my class.

I don't know what was so funny about

but definitely, I will laugh till I cry.

They are my inspirations and motivations for me

to keep on going for lessons unless one of them

is too lazy and the thought of cabotting is there,

satu pergi, sume pergi. Baek ar korang! HAHAHA.

Chalet on this coming December.

Just couldn't wait! WEEEE!!!

So far, the people above are so-called

confirmed for the chalet. Confirm GEREK!

Ya Tuhan.

2009-11-03T00:31:00.005+08:00

The sight of you walking with her just make my

tears fall naturally to the Earth.

It's saddening to see your love ones going off with someone else.

It hurts even too much to see him turning behind, looking at me,

and still continue with what he's doing. Only GOD knows how I feel.

He's the ALMIGHTY, the Greatest.

I leave everything to GOD.

"Ya Allah, kuatkan lah semangatku.

Aku redha dengan ape yang Engkau telah turunkan buatku.

Mungkin, ini semua balasan buatku.

Aku akui, aku pernah berbuat salah dahulu.

Tetapi sekarang, aku cuba untuk berubah buat si dia namun...

Mungkin aku silap....

Ya Allah, semoga Engkau selalu berada di sisiku

agar aku dapat harungi cabaran hidupku ini.... Amin."

It's true, Don't expect much from him.

Adam marahkan saya.

2009-11-02T00:15:00.006+08:00

Guess what people?!!!

I was shocked to see 'Adam' at the opposite side

of my workplace just now!!! Imagine you're

reaching the entrance of your shop and trying to pull the

doors to close the shop for the day and there he is, standing still,

looking at me with his arms resting on the pillar.

I was utterly speechless!!!!!

But of course, my heart was like jumping for joy.

I couldn't stop smiling, from ear to ear.

Thank you for the wonderful time spent.

Thank you 'Mr Adam Syakir'!

Eyes are nearly shut.

2009-10-31T23:01:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, Aqidah accompanied me to Town

to take my cash. Thank you my selenger bachin!

Slacked around at Lido for almost 3 hours and

somewhere around 11pm, she went back home while

I headed back to Forum.

I feel like one princess yesterday.

Thank you my loved ones!

I simply love the supper at Lau Pa Sat!

Back home nearly at 1am. Shagged.

Work was fine today.

Of course, I'm feeling all jaded.

Since pay is in, I have to control my budget.

Right now, Bershka is at the top of my list!

To you, thank you for the company just now.

You shouldn't have come down because it was

raining so heavily. But anyway,

I appreciate whatever that you've been doing. (:

Anyway, I did tell all of you out there with regards to

someone trying to get to know me using the name ADAM?

To be exact, 'his name' was Muhd Adam Syakir Bin Rusli.

Haha. Basically, this someone is really bored right now.

He has got nothing else to do other than to disturb people.

I know who he is. He literally called me and TADAA!!

He's still out there, disturbing people.

Engulfed.

2009-10-29T23:44:00.002+08:00

I've been putting too much hopes on you.

Everyday, I prayed to HIM, hoping for a miracle to happen.

I've been waiting for the day to come.

But I don't seem to see myself drawing near to my hopes.

I'm a little too not over you.

You may see me walking happily

but you never know what's in my heart, my mind.

I bring you together with me, wherever I go.

I picture you in my mind because I know

I couldn't get you back to my life.

'To be only yours I pray cause I know now,

you're my only HOPE....' - Mandy Moore

Fucker!!

2009-10-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

and who is that fucker who texted me,

wanting to get to know me?

Who is that one particular fucker who gave my number to him?

Or.... who ever is trying to be 'Adam' here?

FUCK YOU!!!

Happy birthday to Haz!

2009-10-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

And I supposed you've read my blog?

Hahaha. So much for wanting to read it kan?

Today, I feel so dominant.

I speak up in class. I gave some points.

I ask questions.

I answered for the team's questions.

What more can I expect for my grade today other than an A?

Hopefully, that faci of mine is sensible enough to grade me.

After school, had early dinner with Ikhsan.

We talk about certain things that has been happening in

our individual's life. He has been such a great companion.

Thank you, my friend, for hearing me out through-out.

Anyway, celebrated Haz's 19th birthday during our second break!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SIAMESE SISTO! MUACCKSSS!

I hope you like my surprise darling! Me love you many-many!!

There's yet another surprise awaiting for you, my dear.

Just wait and see ok?

S-m-i-l-e is all that I need

2009-10-26T20:55:00.003+08:00

I just feel splendid right now.

I don't know what so splendid about.

I think I manage to overcome my feelings now.

It finally comes to an end. How pleasure it feels.

May you and her be happy always.

I shall pray for your happiness, no worries.

To you, please take good care of him.

He may be fragile at times.

Always shower him with pamper-ism and

don't ever make him upset because he won't tolerate that.

And to you, take good care of her.

Don't ever make her cry. Do not play with her feelings alright?

Insyallah, the two of you lasts! (:

Thank you my girls for hearing out my problems.

I'm glad to have friends like the two of you.

I can only depend on you both now. (:

@Merdandy

2009-10-24T22:58:00.002+08:00

A night with the ladies down at Merdandy was simply awesome!

Shall upload pictures taken once I get the the pictos!

Till then, goodnight World! (:

F___ you!

2009-10-22T23:15:00.005+08:00

This is NOORIMA. She's M-E-R-E-P-E-K!

But she likes to laugh, just like me!

My laughing partner in class, for now. (:

It's really demoralising seeing a C grade, with me

attending the class for the whole period!

Puas hati aku cabot kan?

Alright, maybe, partly is my fault too, having to

speak lesser during discussions.

Never you mind Madam because I shall speak way

too much the very next week!

I just don't understand why facilitators

nowadays are having high expectations on us!

Fuck you Faci!!

At the very least, I'm feeling much better

after venting my angers here.

Pheww!

School has been pretty hectic.

I hasn't had enough rest.

My body has not been pretty well.

Aches here and there.

Lucky thing I'm off on weekends.

At least I could spend time resting or even window shopping.

And oh! I so much wanted to watch Jennifer's Body!

The adverts just attract my attention!

Talking about movies, yesterday, the few of us in my class,

had our attendance partial-ed.

We simply abhor the lesson.

What's more when our Faci is full of craps!

He's trying to be LAME

and sarcastic?! Come on la.

With a class that have girls like us, he's just a nut!

His jokes can't go further!

Simply can't spell LAME without ME! (:

Zuzuu and I have come out with plans!

Excited gilerr!!

WOHOOOO!! Kan zuzzuu kan?

The rest mesti ikot punya! (:

Happy!

2009-10-20T15:32:00.004+08:00

Hooooraayy!!

I've gotten something from him!

Ok, I think I shall rephrase my sentence.

Hooorrayyy!!!

He gave me a surprised the day before!

and guess what? It's from the HELEN accessories baby!

I'm so as happy as a lark!

My friends, ok mostly my classmates, were making noises!

As usual, Noorima, Zuuzuuu and Imah went AUWWWED!

I showed mummy immediately the moment I entered my house.

Mummy pon went AUWWED! hahahaha.

CUTE isn't it?

and mummy said, 'kenape tak ____ jek?'.

I turn around and chuckled. (:

Alright, lesson is still ongoing.

I shouldn't have blog right now. Naughty Aini!

I have somewhere to go to right after school ends.

PRONTO! (:

I shall end my post with my own sayings..

'Rupa ada, badan pon ada. Seksi teramat, mudah bergaya.

Tetapi apa gunanya semua itu jika akhlak

seseorang wanita sedemikian sudah tiada?'

Renung-renungkan lah.....

Saya rase saya _____ awak!

2009-10-17T23:05:00.004+08:00

Thank you so much to ______.

It has been a pleasure to have you around,

regardless virtually or even reality,

You've never failed to cheer me up. (:

Work earlier on was quite tiring.

This week has been an ongoing week for me

since I do not have any off days for myself to even rest.

My eyes were nearly shut when I fold the clothings there.

But, after work ends, my eyes automatically OPEN la sey!

HAHAHAHA. I know, someone know

but hopefully the rest just action don't know la kan...

HEHEHE. The past few days, I've been dreaming

about this particular someone named _____.

I'm not too sure why is that so.

Oh God, please guide me through. Amin.

Got to go now. Tomorrow shall be working

down at FORUM! Thank GOD, there'll only

be the juniors working!! Which means...

ENJOY TO THE MAX DAY!

2009-10-16T11:12:00.004+08:00

I look so good without YOU

but not without YOU!

GET IT? hahaha.

Ouh yes, yesternight was all funn!

I simply love the atmosphere!

WOOHOOO!

2009-10-15T00:50:00.003+08:00

Sorry Izam for the complications.

Yerlah. Kiter da tak blog pasal awak lagi ok?

Ouh, Thanks for accepting me as what we are right now.

I'm all glad now.

TIME TO MOVE ON GIRL.... JYEAH!

2009-10-14T15:25:00.002+08:00

I just can't continue living in a state of denial.

I tried to move on but....

I tried every possible way to let if happen naturally but...

I tired be friendly with almost anyone but...

I tried to forget him but....

This word 'BUT' here keeps on popping out

simply because...

I still love him.

Yes, you Izam.

The one that I've been spending my life with almost to 3 years!

And I bet, you too, just couldn't stop thinking about me.

You're such a coward if you're just afraid to express your feelings.

2009-10-13T22:35:00.001+08:00

I'm still missing you, don't you get it?

Happy.

2009-10-10T22:41:00.001+08:00

Your presence brings warmth and comfort to myself.

I enjoy having you around.

You make me smile, making me laugh....

Wani, I sayang u!

2009-10-09T00:46:00.001+08:00

Woah! I feel superbly fresh!

Thanks to my dearie cousin, Wani, for the

wonderful sharing session, which turns out

to be very SEXCITINGSSS! hahahahha.

Exciting I meant.

2009-10-08T13:25:00.003+08:00

The thought of you hugging her, even when you're still with me,

just making me feels like I'm not worth for you. May the two of you lasts.

Goodbye.

There's always a fullstop to every beginning.

2009-10-08T10:04:00.004+08:00

I'll be privatising my blog anytime sooner.

Only the closest one can view it.

After I privatised my blog, I wouldn't want to hear

stuffs like me posting ugly posts for this particular someone.

I'm not as evil as what you might be thinking.

I know how she's feeling right now. I'm a woman too, just like her.

Women share the same sentiments, sometimes.

And to you, you might be reading this.

I seriously has got nothing much to say.

Just that, please don't think negative about me.

I meant no harm for you, seriously.

I wouldn't want to be a stalker of yours.

My dear friends/cousins/aunts out there, please,

don't bother about my life any more.

Let me overcome this hardship alone.

Just make me smile, all that matters to me now.

2009-10-06T23:56:00.005+08:00

I'm under dilemma.

On hiatus.

Hanya kau yang mampu - Aizat

Ku cuba redakan relung hari
Bayangamu yg berlalu pergi
Terlukis di dalam kenangan
Bebas bermain di hatiku

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Aku cinta oooohhhhhh….
Aku cinta ooooooo…..
Aku cinta oooohhhhhh….
Aku cinta ooooooo…..

I've change to a new number!

2009-10-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

Today marks the day the school reopens.

I feel so fresh but after all those repetitive

actions from all of the semesters,

doing powerpoint slides and all,

I felt so lethargic.

Since I have nowhere to go after school,

I decided to head to library

to send back the books that I've

borrowed at Civics, alone.

Intending to go shopping alone at Causeway

but I bumped into Sirah.

Accompanied her to Starbucks for her to

complete her art work while I drank my

Mocha Ice blend in Tall. Somehow or another,

I decided to head town to get her a top and bottom

for myself. Since UNIQLO has got nothing that interest

my eyes, I decided to go for MANGO. I spent $58 on a

top for Sirah and bottom for myself.

Ouh yes, to my closest friends out there, I've change

to a new number!

Please personally ask from me from MSN ok?

Meanwhile, I'm still using the old number as well!

Thank you! (:

I'm so excited, very excited!

2009-10-04T20:12:00.009+08:00

Did I ever mention that I've had a

date with Esha Darling

to Bugis to watch 4BIA 2?

Nah, it's ok. I don't think I ever mention that.

Anyway, last Monday,

met her up at Bugis to catch the

above-mentioned movie at ILUMA.

We simply love the cinema's seating and

I would rate the movie 3.5/5.

There are still some scary elements in it but then

some left you wondering what's the ending would be like.

Anyway, I love the very last part of the story.

The twist was so much unpredictable, kan Esha?

As usual, with Esha's Miss Nikon, we snapped

pictures of us non other than the toilet itself.

Pretty cool red walls!

I love you la Esha Darling!

You always make me smileeee!! (:

***************************************************

Just recently, last Friday, my secondary school girls

decided to meet up and jalan raya together.

I had so much fun with them simply because we had so

much to talk about. Fazz's brought her Baby Ally

along and the other 5 of us took turns to babysit her.

Baby Ally is so effing cute!

Well, let the pictures do the talking alright?

I love all of you girls! And I really wonder real hard

how the hell we got ourselves CHEETAH GIRLS as our name!

It rather sounds pathetic isn't it? But who cares, as long as

we stay happy together, our friendship that has been going on for

like 6 years plus right now, will go very farrrr. Insyaallah. .

*****************************************

I finally submitted by PP (Professional Profiling project!).

All I have to do now is to wait for its plagiarism status and

see if my advisor approved my work. Hopefully, she does!!

And guess what people?!?!?!

Tomorrow, Republic Polytechnic students will have to

come back to school because tomorrow is the official date

that the school is re-opening back from its term break!

OH MY GOD! Isn't that fast? *fainted*

What's more when I'm taking 5 days module instead of 4 and

next weekends (only) onwards, I'm starting to work already!

I think I can be really skinny by next year! *shake head*

Lucky thing that I'm in the same class as Imah and Zuzu.

Sorry Esha, you have to make new friends already, ok?

Ouh ya, Hazlinda, are you tired after getting home from work?

hehehe. See you all in school tomorrow!

I'm so excited to see my new classmates! (:

2009-10-03T20:05:00.002+08:00

Mr Izam and family will be coming over to my house any time sooner.

In the meantime, I will continue with my PP report and when

I've finally submitted it, I shall update my bloggy. Be Back! (:

2009-09-28T00:40:00.003+08:00

Raya for 2 days straight were nothing but MADNESS!

Tons of pictures were taken but I shall only upload it

once I feel like doing so.

For now, GOOD NIGHT world!

I need a rest. Tomorrow will be having a date

with Esha darling down at Eunos first and then to Bugis

to catch a movie. Siap dengan couple seat!

Thanks to Mimin to helping me to change my blog skin.

Credits to you! (:

and i love my FAMILIES and my bakal-family. (: